The Neglectant blogger

Ok, so first things first, I am the worst blogger in the world considering i cant even keep up once a week =p . Anyways how about an update boys and girls? Well living at home has been unbearable lately, now i'd actually rather be at school or work. Going home is like a chore or a thing where i have to bite my tongue and take it all in. Lately my parents have been blaming everything that is going wrong in their lives on me, as if i dont have enough things in my life to feel guilty for... I'm just really tired of feeling like the bad guy, I'm tired of "not being able to do anything right" as my parents would say. I just dont understand, I'm going to school, working, paying whatever bills they ask me to pay, What more could they want from me? Lately, the only thing thats been running through my mind is 'HOW DO I GET OUT ASAP?"

But i actually dont want to think this way. Me and my dad used to have such a strong bond and my mom and I were so-so. Now things have completely switched. My father and I can NEVER have a normal conversation, it's either him telling me what I'm doing wrong, What i should be doing and how I'm the one tearing this family apart.... in all honesty I dont see how I am capable of this. And now my mother and i are like BFF's, what the hell? I used to dread even talking to my mother, and now she seems to be the only one in my family that i can turn to lately, everyone else seems to have this never-ending disappointment with me. I'd understand if I were intentoinally being a jerk, reckless, or careless.... But i honestly don't know what it is that I'm doing that could possibly have such an effect on my family that they have to have this "Tired of your shit" attitude with me.... I really mean no harm, lately all i've been wanting to make my life perfect is just to have peace with parents..... I guess you just cant have everything... That was nice to get off my chest. =[